Thursday, September 25, 2008

Wannabe

Wannabe photographer
I want to capture through a lens
What I see with my eyes
Make it real to you
Just like it is to me.

Wannabe writer
Turn a love into something more
That reaches further
And reaches back
Like doodles never do.

Wannabe chef
I want to make it because it sounds good
To do it well
To know by what I see, smell, and taste
What it needs to be just right
And share it because you're here

Wannabe information junkie
I want to be the go-to girl
Because I want to know
What makes it tick, how it works, why it is how it is
And share it with you because you asked

Wannabe organized
To be ahead of the game so the game doesn't play me
To know where it is and what it is before I need it
To be ready when surprises come
And never be taken prisoner by my own lack of foresight

Wannabe tidy
I want to keep it clean
Safe and healthy -- a place of rest
Not to apologize for the way things are
Because they are always ready for you.

Wannabe frugal
I want to be just the right frugal
Who is wise and cautious
Who lacks nothing because she wastes nothing
With freedom to be generous whenever the opportunity arises

Wannabe gracious
I want to be aware of the abundance of Mercy
To always have a kind and gentle answer
Slow with sarcasm, cautious with wit
To receive you whenever and however you arrive


Wannabe true
I don't want the gap between what I know and what I do
To be a yawning chasm
Out of reach, and hopelessly so
Making a liar out of me

Wannabe good
The girl who does what she should because she should
I don't want to fight the rebel in me
To be contrary for its own sake
And let it be because my heart is so inclined

Wannabe brave
I don't want to be afraid to speak, to act, to wonder, to pray
I don't want to jump at shadows in the corners of my vision
Don't want to startle at voices in the night
Just want to be at peace, whether in darkness or light, silence or tumult
You're here -- I need nothing else

Wannabe clear
I want to think! To be of sound mind
Clear reason, never never overwhelmed
Not reacting in fear or because my hand is forced
But acting in wisdom and the surety of the faithful heart

Wannabe warrior
I want to be the girl who hits her knees
Because she knows just how to pray
For you -- with you
To uphold you now and shore up your faith for the days ahead

Wannabe woman
Not a child, but a woman
Of God, of Husband, of Family, of Friends
Of dignity and grace
Of steady temperament and gentle spirit
Not tempestuous and impetuous

Wannabe supermom
Pack lunches, birthday cupcakes for your class
Read you a story and say your prayers
Spit-shined and polished, combed and mannerly
Never short, always gentle
Inspire you to your best

Wannabe trophy-wife
The real kind -- not just arm candy
Crown of honor, joy of your heart
Humble, respectful, noble of character
Loyal servant to you and your household
Always, as unto the Lord

Wannabe me
Not a shadow or a shell
Not a facsimile of a model this or that
But me -- mind, will, and emotion
Wit, wisdom, curiosity and sentiment
Free to laugh and cry, think and feel
And know it's all okay

Wannabe, wannabe
Ever gonnabe?
Gotta wonder when the sun comes up
If today will be the day
And find hope when the sun goes down
That tomorrow will come in new mercy
Fresh with promise kept and abiding love
Enough, and more
Always more, beyond imagination
Gonnabe someday what I wannabe
Because You Are